Stanford Strong

 Some pictures of my parents 50th wedding anniversary party on Saturday, June 25.  Julian and I weren't able to make it due to us being in Kentucky but we were glad Chris, Alex and Lilly were able to spend the week with my family.   Julian and I went to a huge car show right in front of our apartment Saturday.  He had so much fun looking at all the cars.  It was a good way to spend Saturday. This calendar is in the laundry room at home.  I had not had the heart to erase it since the accident.  It's like time froze and I couldn't accept that life was not the same.  It was a constant reminder of how normal our life was and it all changed in the blink of an eye.  I decided to erase it right before we left for Kentucky.  It was time to leave that behind us and concentrate on what is to come.   I still have really bad days where the grief and sadness is overwhelming.  Something will remind me of what happened and we have a totally n...

 post from October 17th on facebook from Jenn: I’m back at Shepherd tonight with Julian. My mom did great with him for the week and gave me a much needed time away to recharge and fill my tank back up so I could be the person Julian needs me to be. I spent so much needed time with chris, Alex and Lilly! I got so much encouragement. Support, hugs and love from friends. . I couldn’t sleep last night thinking of coming back to this setting again, but it was anxiety provoking to come back here. Im praying that we have some positive news to report this week with the trach and getting this left arm to move more on it’s own. I keep thinking of what one of the doctors at work says to help her get through her difficult time…… “keep f***ing going”. I is one day at a time but that’s the choice we have, push through and take each day as it comes. Im refreshed this week and here to continue to push Julian to push himself also so that we can get some movement. Chris is doing good on the h...

 June 26, 2020 It's been a hard week emotionally.   Julian and I are in Kentucky and we are doing PT/OT as often as they can get us in, but we are missing home a lot.  My parent's 50th anniversary party was this past weekend and it killed me for Julian and I not to be there.  Today, was. another blow when I thought I had a caregiver that would come to stay with Julian for the 2nd half of July, but she told me today she wasn't going to be able to.  Not that I wanted to leave Julian, but I miss my other kids so much.  I'm missing being their mom, and they are having to grow up faster than they should have to with all of this.  Today was like the straw that broke the camel's back.   The flood gates have opened.  It's good to just get it out and then get my shit back together and get back to being strong for everyone.  I just don't feel like anything goes our way.  Nothing as planned happens, and we have to literally fight and claw for ...

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