Some pictures of my parents 50th wedding anniversary party on Saturday, June 25.  Julian and I weren't able to make it due to us being in Kentucky but we were glad Chris, Alex and Lilly were able to spend the week with my family.  






Julian and I went to a huge car show right in front of our apartment Saturday.  He had so much fun looking at all the cars.  It was a good way to spend Saturday.



This calendar is in the laundry room at home.  I had not had the heart to erase it since the accident.  It's like time froze and I couldn't accept that life was not the same.  It was a constant reminder of how normal our life was and it all changed in the blink of an eye.  I decided to erase it right before we left for Kentucky.  It was time to leave that behind us and concentrate on what is to come.   I still have really bad days where the grief and sadness is overwhelming.  Something will remind me of what happened and we have a totally new life now.  I miss being a busy mom of 3 kids.  I hate that my 13 year old daughter is trying to take care of Chris and I when she sees us crying or upset.  I hate her childhood will forever be scarred because of our sadness.  I try my best to put on a happy face and cry alone after they've gone to bed.  It's just harder to hide when your kids are growing up and staying up so late, or so attuned to what is going on.  Love that they were able to go to Seabrook for our annual vacation and have so much fun and attention from our family.  


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