June 29, 2022

We are getting ready to go home tomorrow after therapy.  May May is flying up tonight to drive with us home.  Today is a better day, getting my shit back together so we can keep plugging along.  We miss home and will be good for spirits to get a few days off.  We had family pictures taken in May and I just got them back.  They turned out better than I could have imagined.  I love pictures and we were scheduled to take fall pictures right after Julian's accident.  When Tana posted this site for pictures I jumped on it.  It was a funny night because this flower field was in Gilbert down a dirt road.  Getting the big van down it was an experience and then we had to had room on side for lift to come down and then Julian to get off the lift.  We had so much trouble getting that to happen, and then getting Julian out of the dirt.   This was truly a mom that wanted pictures, and now it was all worth it.  They are fantastic.  They hight light the family unit and not just Julian's current state in a wheelchair.  


































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