Facebook post from Sept 16, 2021


I've been a nurse since 1999 and had my nurse practitioner degree since 2003. I have taught at some of the best schools, and I have been blessed to have worked along side some of the best nurses, techs, physicians over the last 22 years. I chose a side of nursing that predominately has happy endings. Yes, we do have the occasional heartbreaking deliveries, and we have been taught how to manage those situations with the upmost empathy and care for those patients. I have worked many days so understaffed that you don't know how you are going to make it to the end of the shift, but I don't believe the patients were ever affected by us being stretched thin, because I have always worked with the best team members and everything always gets done to the best of our ability. I am so used to being in my nurse, teacher role that just being the mom of a sick patient is very foreign to me. It's so hard not to want to take over and I'm trying really hard to listen to the people here that are experienced in this field and roll with the punches. Some days are harder than other to just be the "mom". It's hard being in settings that aren't "happy" and people have to guard their hearts from their work so that they can keep coming back to work day after day. It's so hard to sleep at night and listen to the sound of the ventalator helping your child breathe. It's so hard not to have my "people " around that I know their skills and trust explisitly to take care of a mom's most important people. Unfortuantely, with covid, units are understaffed and sometimes it shows. Families are not allowed to be together in the darkest moments of their life. I am forced to share devastating news through a fence while maintaining distance from loved ones that would be there for me in normal circumstances. I have learned that it's much easier to be the nurse and not the mom. I just wanted everyone I have worked with over the years to know that they are awesome in what they do, and I wouldn't be the nurse I am without them in my life. I just wish they could be here with me now to help me make the right decisions or to advocate for Julian when my mommy lens are on. ( and I'm trying to be really good mom as a patient which is hard :

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